i want 2 move on wif my life ,

in past 2 weeks , my life turned up side down , problem is chasing me around , no matter where i go , problem is gonna be there n wait 4 me , idk why , but i feel sad n i feel sick , its like everybody is searching 4 my mistakes , but i manage 2 fake a smile 4 my bestie n my bff , i dont want them 2 worry bout me , trust me , i try 2 hide all my problems from everybody , i thought that everything is gonna be juz fine , but i was wrong , everything getting worst than ever ! , everybody hates me , ppl said that i'm a fuckin-suck girl ever , someone said that i'm playgirl , , n etc , n thx 4 that !! , i'm hppy !! , i juz want 2 forget all of it n get 2 move on wif my life , but they wont let me 2 do it , the want 2 hurt n burn me piece-2-piece , they want me 2 suffer , i might looks okea , fine , n hppy , but the truth is i'm depressed , totally lost my way , i lost my spirit , i lost myself , i lost everything !! n i want 2 thanked 2 those who make me feel like this , i hope u enjoy it , because , this girl who u col qiss , roxy , or wht ever , is losing her faith , i know from the day we first meet , u hate me like hell , u just pretend 2 be one of my fwen , u make me believe u n